A Confident Heart

Losing Emma has made me look more closely at my faith. Unlike so many others who have been in my place, I am not at a point where I feel like I have lost or am questioning my faith. During all of this I haven't even felt very angry at God (yes I've been mad and had plenty of why me's but I haven't felt that raging anger). I feel more of a sad resignation. I don't know why this happened or how God fits in to all of it, but I know that I can't change it and I will never have the answers I want. So instead I am trying to find a way to move forward, and for me personally I feel like thats easier to do with God than without him.

In order to help me explore my faith and hopefully strengthen it I have decided to join an online bible study. I am doing the study through Proverbs 31 Ministries. I learned about it through a friend who participates in their bible studies and has shared positive things about them on Facebook. I got curious and decided to look it up.

The next session (starts in October) is based on the book A Confident Heart. When I looked up the book I felt like it really spoke to me. Here is part of the description from Amazon: "Often the biggest obstacle to living out our faith is our own doubt--about our worth, our abilities, our relationship with God, and situations in our lives. A Confident Heart gives voice to the questions, doubts, struggles, and hopes so many women have. Author Renee Swope shows us how to identify, overcome, and learn from our self-doubts so that we can live confidently in God's assurance, truth, and grace." (I bolded the parts that jumped out at me)

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This book seems like it will not only help me deal with situations and feelings I would have had before July 2, but when I think about all of the fears and uncertainties the future holds now, especially in regards to trying to have a baby again some day, this book seems like exactly what I need. 

If anyone wants to do this along with me the only thing you need to do to participate is buy the book and then you just sign up for free online. 

*I'm sure you already know this, but I feel like I have to do the blogger thing and let you know that this is not a sponsored post.