Capture Your Grief Day 1: Sunrise

October 1 marks the beginning of Infant & Child Death Awareness Month. This is the term used by the MISS Foundation. Most others call this month Pregnancy & Infant Loss Awareness Month. I was recently told by someone who is a part of the MISS Foundation that the reason they have chosen another name for this month is because words have a big impact and meaning, and the truth is I (and anyone else in my shoes) did not lose a pregnancy, I lost a child. My child. All beautiful 8 pounds 3 and a half ounces of her. She wasn't just a pregnancy, or even worse a "fetus"...that makes me cringe.

As part of this month I will be participating in Carly Marie's (an amazing inspirational bereaved mama) Capture Your Grief project. I will be posting my pictures here on the blog as well as on Instagram. Here is an outline of the project:

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If you follow me on Instagram you know that I have started photographing the sunrise and sometimes the sunset. It is really beautiful to me, and gives me a sense of peace, hope, and promise. Like Emma, I feel that it is perfect and beautiful, but can only be held onto for minutes before its gone.

I was excited for today's subject, Sunrise, and was then disappointed when I woke up to cloudy skies and a not so spectacular sunrise.

However, after looking more closely I decided that this sunrise is a good reflection of where I am today. Not too spectacular, just doing what I am supposed to do without any pizzaz. I love though that behind those dark clouds (they look kind of like mountains) some brightness is shining through. There is even a streak of light from an airplane flying by. I like to think of those bits of light as what lies ahead for me while I am stuck in these dark clouds.

Here are a few of the more spectacular sunrises that I have photographed in the last few weeks. All are without a filter and taken with the camera on my piece of junk phone (can't wait for my iPhone to arrive!)

And the best one for last. Anyone else think the cloud between the two trees looks like a little angel?