This is Your Brain on Grief...

Do you remember this commercial?

This is me, and my drug is grief. Thankfully, because of the amazing women I have met along this journey who commiserate with me and validate me, I know that it is "normal" for me to have scrambled eggs for brains these days.

For those who have experienced "pregnancy brain" let me tell you, you've got nothing on "grief brain". I am constantly in a haze, and there are times when even doing the most routine mundane tasks really takes a lot of thinking to figure out. I feel like a total airhead a lot of the time.

This morning, and not for the first time, I messed up my own Starbucks order. Granted, I am one of those annoying people who has forty two requests with my coffee {sorry}, but seriously I can't even order coffee now. Tonight Chick-Fil-A did not have the soda I wanted, so I just randomly picked something else that I didn't even really want because I saw it and said it, which was easier than trying to think and make a decision about what I really wanted. I have always been a little indecisive and prone to flustering, but it is getting a bit ridiculous.

I know I need to be "gentle" with myself, and that my brain is reacting this way because there are times that it needs to shut down a little to protect itself, but its hard to feel confused and out of it a lot of the time.

Hoping for peace and clarity,

Sarah